It sounds like you’re in a tough spot, but know that it’s perfectly valid to seek help, no matter how big or small your concerns may feel. Therapy is a personal journey, and there’s no ‘right’ amount of struggle required to justify getting support. Remember, your feelings are valid, and acknowledging that you need help is a significant first step.
It’s common to feel conflicted about starting with a new therapist, but try to view it as a fresh opportunity to explore your needs and concerns. As for worrying about being admitted, therapists typically look for specific criteria that indicate someone is at risk before considering hospitalization. Being open about your fears with your new therapist can set the stage for honest communication and ensure that they understand your boundaries.
Lastly, please don’t let your last experience undermine your trust in therapy or yourself. Your well-being matters, and seeking help shows great strength. (Strength doesn’t mean you’re not struggling “enough”)! hang in there and good luck.